{baby shower}

This past weekend my friends threw me a baby shower! It was so fun celebrating our little boy and I love now seeing the drawers in his room full of the cutest clothes, toys, and books. I am so grateful for all who made it such a perfect afternoon! Definitely great food and fun games. It meant so much to be able to celebrate this little guy and to keep moving forward with faith and hope.

This coming Saturday will start the 34th week of this pregnancy. This was the week that Elaine passed away, at 34 weeks and 1 day along. I've wondered for the past few months what it would be like to reach this exact point again, how I would feel and how things would be. It's all been somewhat of a surreal dream. Some days fly by and others drag on, leaving me unsure how to keep going.

Once we hit 34 weeks and 2 days, I think mentally things will be a bit easier. So for now, I'm just grateful for good doctors, for medical testing, for the hospital being just one minute down the road, for feeling the intense punches and kicks going on in my stomach all the time, and most importantly, for knowing who the Master Physician is---Jesus Christ. And He is with us every second of each day.

39 more days to go.