{2 months old}

Jake turned 2 months old on Valentine's day! Today he's 10 weeks old. He weighs just over 11 lbs now and is growing his hair back on the top of his head! It all had fallen out a few weeks after he was born. It seems like just yesterday he was born, but at the same time it feels like forever ago. It's hard to imagine what life was like without him here. He did great getting his 2 month shots and only cried for a bit afterwards! He has been all smiles the past few weeks and is much more alert and aware; so much fun! He absolutely loves the picture of the temple on our wall and has stared at it since he was born. It's the cutest thing! If he's ever fussy and finds the temple, he calms right down.

I've discovered that I like the smell of spit up. So weird I know! But when I smell it all the time on me, on him, everywhere, it reminds me of him and just makes me so grateful to have a little one to take care of right now. Each day is a new adventure and different from the day before and I'm learning to go with the flow and not care about having a schedule! I've been such a planner, but Jake's needs vary by the day and by the hour. Some days he gets more hungry then others, some days he needs to sleep longer than other days, and some days he just wants to be awake. He's growing so much that everything constantly changes in regards to his needs! It's freeing to not try to stick to a schedule right now and makes me feel like all my focus is on his needs being met.

It's hard for me to list out all the things that parenting is teaching us, there's just so much! One of the most profound things that has hit me was feeling a portion of what our Heavenly Father feels. I knew Jake would hate getting shots, who doesn't? I knew he'd cry and be sad. But I also knew that getting him these shots would help protect him in the future and make his body stronger. I knew that the temporary pain would be worth it in the end. I can see this from my perspective, but right now Jake has no clue, he only knows the pain. While getting ready to take him to the doctor I thought about how Heavenly Father can see all---He knows everything in the past, present and future. So he can see what experiences we need to go through so that we can become who we need to be and in the end be stronger and better. It must be so hard for Heavenly Father to watch all of his children struggle through this life. So much pain, sadness, and hardship. But, He is all knowing and knows that those are the very things we need to go through in order to accomplish what we need to in this life. And that brings so much peace!